A Journey from Darkness – Week 6

I had more tests done. Things are not looking good for me on the long term, but Cat assures me we can tackle this latest news together and not to fear an interim diagnosis. I would love to share with you what that was, but I would like to protect this piece of my privacy, which I hope you understand.

Man, have I been having a lot of regrets lately. One of my silly flash cards reads,“Regrets cripple the future.” Ouch!

I hate the term wake-up call. But, I cannot find another word to express the fact that I feel this crazy sense of urgency and helplessness all at once.

Professionally, at least for me, I am keeping all this to myself. My performance of the past 1.5 years hardly allows me a pity-party at work, and I think to some degree it would be used against me.

I am hanging in there. I got a pay-cut. Nothing huge – but I think my Boss wanted to sort of backhand slap me a final time.
I think my performance is there. Thank God my health is not impairing my work.

Eating regularly and eating well are changing me for the better.

I was away all last week but stayed in a hotel that allowed me to give them my diet plan and send me food that kept me out of the sugar devil’s way. I paid out of pocket for this – but it was worth it.

I lost 1.5 more pounds. This really was never my goal – but face it – if we can button things up easier – we feel happier. A sad reality of the human psyche, right?

I have signed on to another 6 week program at The Second Act. I will update you periodically with my progress, as it also keeps me more accountable.

I do hope that if one person out there has learned that your diet and mental health intrinsically affect your overall life – then my job is done!

Until next time, eat well and remember not to take anything for granted.


Posted in Food Addiction, Health, Nutrition, Patient Stories, Well Being.


  1. Here is my problem with your online diary…. You obviously can afford the help. Most of us cannot. So, I beg to differ if you would still have your job in the real world. Maybe I am a bit bitter (ok a lot) but how does this help me or anyone else.

    Bitter in Seattle.

  2. Hi Amanda,

    The entire point is to show the readers how influential diet is in affecting your mood and the way you operate daily. Most of us think it is “in our head” or “the way we are”.

    I am sorry you are so bitter – but why not try rereading with an open heart – and you might just find a little help within Jenny’s words…

    Best Wishes.

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